writing prompt

"start with the day of the week it is... then let your stream of consciousness take it from there."

(sidenote: i was reading meggy's blog and she's doing writing

prompts and i realized it's been forever since i did one. so here you are)

today is (*checks calander*) tuesday. which means tomorrow is wednesday which means the next day is thursday. and i hate thursdays more than any other day of the week. know why? it's like, the weekend is tempting you but it's not quite there (also waiting for a letter, it comes any day from thursday to saturday, the suspense is wretched). hopefully this weekend, i can actually do something. i've felt a little trapped the last few weeks but hey, i guess that's part of growing up. 

i don't like growing up. it has it's perks sometimes, but i miss being a kid. you know what i miss the most? saturday morning cartoons. i also miss waking up early while my dad was getting ready for work and eating breakfast with him. just me and him. then i'd go snuggle up in bed with my mom. those were the days. 

today me and my (former) roommates were reminiscing about freshmen year. what a great year. there was something magical about it. me and megan confirmed together that there was in fact magic during that time. somehow. the place. the people. the adventures. all of it. i miss it. 

i also miss bryan. my best friend in the world. only 304 days till he comes home. that's 10 months from today. i love missionaries. it sort of freaks me out that i have friends coming home from missions this year. like, people my age that i graduated with. it makes me feel so old. i remember when people younger than me started leaving on missions. THAT made me feel old. 

another thing that makes me feel old is that i officially didn't go to school with anyone at layton high now. everyone i've gone to school with, is graduated. people my age and younger are getting married and having kids. it sort of makes me panic sometimes like, i'm behind everyone else but then it's like "wait. i'm only 20. i've got PLENTY of time for that."

it's so weird cause outside of utah, people don't get married  that young. even 20. even like, 26! my singles ward, they're all older. they're all graduated from college and are set in their careers. it's crazy, at one point, i was the youngest person there. and they are all happily unmarried. so, even though i get a little intimidated when someone tells me "oh, i'm just finishing up law school" or "oh, i'm just a scientist using stem cells to find a cure for cancer" and i'm just like "i'm a nanny. i did one year of college" i think it's awesome that they are living their lives and have a great career and aren't part of the 'utah norm' even though a lot of them are, in fact, from utah. and it reminds me that there is no rush. it's not a race to be the first one of your friends married with 10 kids. 

i plan to travel at least a little before i have kids. i know, i know. EVERYONE says that but, it's my dream to go to greece. when i was home, my dad was saying that when i'm married to just do it. him and my mom wish they would have gone to france when they were first married. just swiped the cards and gone cause it would have been easier to pay it off before they had kids. so, that's my plan. swipe the card and head to greece. if that's the only country i visit in my life (besides U.S. and mexico) i will die happy. i also want to do a cross-country roadtrip. hit every state (aside from hawaii and alaska) in like, 2-3 weeks. live out of the car and hit a few states a day. you dream going to a fancy hotel in some tropical paradise and i want to live out of my car for a month. (hahahahaha) but really. it would be an adventure of a lifetime. i've also decided i want to live in alaska for a few years. i've thought about it a lot the past few months. and it would just be cool. it's out of utah and it's not california. and who lives in alaska? no one! it would be so cool.

back to reality. i work a full day tomorrow. and i just went from wednesday to living in alaska. it's sort of like the telephone game or gossiping where things get warped and changed only, it's all in my own mind. now if you'll excuse me, i've got a room to clean and pretty little liars to watch. 

goodnight. i love you all!