i'm an alto

all through elementary school, my biggest dream was to be a laytone; layton high school's ultimate show choir. they came and performed every christmas and gave out red stickers when they sang rudolph the red nosed reindeer and it was the coolest thing in the world. i tried out for the choir my sophomore year and didn't make it. i got stuck in the choir with the people who think they're really good singers but aren't. how humiliating! but if i was going to get into the show choir, i had to stick with it.

i remember it was pouring rain and i was at a birthday party when the list was posted for the next year's choir, i left to check it. i made lace. the all girl's show choir almost as cool as laytones (although i learned once i got to high school that choir REALLY isn't that cool...)

i hated it. lace was MISERABLE. my first teacher was a crazy old man who took trampoline lessons and married a student and my second teacher  thought we were on glee bringing in choreographers and forcing us to do all sorts of early morning and after school practices with lifts and flips and kicks. it was a nightmare. i started hating it so much that i forgot that i actually do love to sing. my only incentive to stay was the disneyland trip the choirs went on every year. so, i tried for lace again.

only this time, i achieved my childhood dream and made laytones. as much as i despised choir, i couldn't help but feel accomplished. after i graduated, i didn't do anything with singing. nothing. i stopped voice lessons. i didn't do church choir. nothing except singing along with the radio and the occasional song with my sister.

today i went to ward choir. i forgot how much i LOVE to sing! i forgot what it feels like when you finally get that harmony just right and everyone gets the chills. i forgot what it's like to read music and repeat lines over and over again. i just... forgot. and it felt SO good to be doing it again.

the point of this extremely long post is to say, don't let things or people make you forget why you love doing something. do things because you love them. not because there is a trip to san diego involved (though that is a nice little bonus) do things for yourself, because you love it.

have a great week!