in case you didn't know...

bryan is home. and i still can't believe it and i can't believe how elated i am. here's the story.

i was told he was coming home may 15.

 on monday may 5, my cousin shelby told me we should go shopping on friday. so i said "okay" (you'll come to learn in this story that i apparently just do what people tell me to do). the night of thursday may 8, my dad says we're all going to dinner the next night. so i said, "okay". 

 so friday may 9 rolls around, i'm up and moving and i say to my mom, "i don't really want to go shopping, i have no money and i don't really need anything." and she says "just go! get cute and dressed up and just have fun" so i said "okay." i started getting ready (i hadn't washed my hair in like, 4 days) and i ask my mom if she'd seen my little sock bun thing and she said no, then i get a text from my cousin saying i should wear my "airport outfit" my clothes, hair, make up everything i wanted to wear to the airport when bryan got home, then we could tweak it if we needed to while we were out shopping. i still wanted to wear my hair up but my mom said she'd straighten it so i said "okay" (come to find out, my mom text my cousin in a panic cause i didn't want to get ready and she knew i'd want to be ready for him... shelby is a genius)

so i'm finally ready and we go out shopping, i found a few dresses and we went back to my house to meet with my family. we drive over to the restaurant and they seat us. we order our appetizers and then...

i'd had thoughts and fears about us. and how we'd act and feel. for the two weeks before he came home, i'd wake up sick with nerves and anxiety every morning. i thought maybe we wouldn't work out and so many feelings and emotions and time would have been wasted, on either end. that he'd come home and break my heart because we grew so differently. but the second i saw him (and actually realized it was him) it immediately left me. every doubt and every bad thought or fear was instantly gone. i didn't know i could feel such joy and happiness and love for and with and about one person. but i do.

so here we are now. it was all worth it. every letter, every lonely second, every tear.

we picked up right where we left off. 

i literally couldn't be any happier.