more wedding shenannigans

the amazing jenna carlson made this for me. i'm in LOVE. she did such a great job!!

literally crazy

for those of you who haven't spent time with me in person over the last month, i'm kind of a nut case right now. i eat, breathe and sleep wedding. my brain is so filled with wedding that i sometimes forget how to do a normal everyday task, or i'll go to do something and on my way i just completely forget what i'm doing. it's complete madness. but it's also quite fun:)

i'm literally having my dream wedding. i'm so excited.

we also had the most AMAZING engagement shoot on sunday and i can't wait to post them all!! (the picture above is from said photoshoot. no edits. it was just THAT beautiful)

i've also lost 18 pounds. and at crossfit today, i went from using a black band to a green band on pull ups. crossfitters will know what that means, for those of you who don't, just be proud of me cause it's a big step for me. i just know i'm going to feel it tomorrow...

my cousin and one of my childhood best friends is getting married tomorrow. she was born exactly one month before me and now she's getting married almost exactly one month before me. funny how it worked out, really.

i go back to san francisco in 23 DAYS!! i'm seriously so excited. i cannot WAIT to see my kiddos again. i've missed them so unbelievably much!


that's all for now folks. maybe i'll post again sometime soon. maybe. we'll see.

in case you didn't know...

bryan is home. and i still can't believe it and i can't believe how elated i am. here's the story.

i was told he was coming home may 15.

 on monday may 5, my cousin shelby told me we should go shopping on friday. so i said "okay" (you'll come to learn in this story that i apparently just do what people tell me to do). the night of thursday may 8, my dad says we're all going to dinner the next night. so i said, "okay". 

 so friday may 9 rolls around, i'm up and moving and i say to my mom, "i don't really want to go shopping, i have no money and i don't really need anything." and she says "just go! get cute and dressed up and just have fun" so i said "okay." i started getting ready (i hadn't washed my hair in like, 4 days) and i ask my mom if she'd seen my little sock bun thing and she said no, then i get a text from my cousin saying i should wear my "airport outfit" my clothes, hair, make up everything i wanted to wear to the airport when bryan got home, then we could tweak it if we needed to while we were out shopping. i still wanted to wear my hair up but my mom said she'd straighten it so i said "okay" (come to find out, my mom text my cousin in a panic cause i didn't want to get ready and she knew i'd want to be ready for him... shelby is a genius)

so i'm finally ready and we go out shopping, i found a few dresses and we went back to my house to meet with my family. we drive over to the restaurant and they seat us. we order our appetizers and then...

i'd had thoughts and fears about us. and how we'd act and feel. for the two weeks before he came home, i'd wake up sick with nerves and anxiety every morning. i thought maybe we wouldn't work out and so many feelings and emotions and time would have been wasted, on either end. that he'd come home and break my heart because we grew so differently. but the second i saw him (and actually realized it was him) it immediately left me. every doubt and every bad thought or fear was instantly gone. i didn't know i could feel such joy and happiness and love for and with and about one person. but i do.

so here we are now. it was all worth it. every letter, every lonely second, every tear.

we picked up right where we left off. 

i literally couldn't be any happier.

neverland

today is thursday. which means instagram is filled with #throwbackthursday photos. 

as you know, i love tbt, so today i posted this photo:

this was taken on september 23, 2011. not that long ago right?

well, in response to the picture, one of these lovely ladies above commented:

"i know we have all said this a million times, but i miss this"

it's insane how fast life moves! like, i absolutely LOVE where i am

and what i'm doing right now but, things were simpler when this photo was taken.

and about the same time of this photo, i was thinking high school was simpler.

and in high school, i thought jr high was simpler and so on and so forth.

i guess as life gets better, it also becomes more complicated. 

ever since i started watching once upon a time, i've become a little fairy tale obsessed,

peter pan has always been a favorite. and the idea of neverland is just... no words.

looking back on moments in my life, i wish i could have been in neverland

so that moment could last just a little longer and i didn't have to grow up quite yet. 

i live 700 miles away from my friends and family. 2,700 miles from 

my boyfriend. i have a job where i will have to pay taxes for the first time.

i'm not complaining, but as you should already know, i'm a big reminiscer.

as ferries bueller once said:

a fairy tale love story

there is a lady in my ward who had a boyfriend when she was 17 years old, they fell in love then went their separate ways. they both married. she got a divorce then remarried at 49 years old to her bishop who was in his 80's. when he got sick he said to her "what have i done to you? i hope you are not alone, if you find a man you want to marry for time, please do" 35 years later, at 81 years old she received a phone call from her high school sweetheart. they had a few phone conversations then over the phone, he asked her to marry him. they are engaged to be married next month.

how cute is that?